West Fork/Crater Sinks prescribed burn March 26th, 2026 in the environment affected the work I was doing on BLM. I did not see any notice of it and I made a decision, I redirected the vehicle to Page for repairs instead of staying near Sedona at Near the Entrance of Crater Lake.
I was in Arizona, winter turning to spring, when a fire started between Sedona and Flagstaff.
I woke to a tentious feeling, Like brain lock… no difficulty doing what I needed, defecation in the bush and moving the fecal matter to the receptacle container in a biodegradable plastic bag. The way, I designed it, the soil in the container and biodegradable plastic bags could be ‘planted’ in spring season out there guerilla garden style, and seeds could be added to the soil for a regenerative composting humanure flower spot while on the road.
After all the mornings needs were met, I sat in the drivers seat and turned to the computer to do some work. The tentious feeling seemed to determine an authoritative drive away from the great camping location I had found.
I saw no weather or people shooting nearby, but felt intensely aware as though there were people shooting, as is so common for the area. Short on income from maintaining and repairing the vehicle, the radiator and the engine coolant system, and a winter/spring of Peace Walks Accross America for a team of Bhikkus and millions of American Folk. I Lived Outside, in the Vehicle, Camping in the Mountains near Boulder. Training Mudgar and Doing Yoga in the snow, Snowga, before heading down the mountain to the library.
As I drove, I reviewed the notes I had taken about what I had to be doing out there in the BLM map designated camping areas managed by the Forest Service and the Bureau of Land Management (BLM).
The tense feeling seemed to indicate another determined authority, so in trying to manage the other authorities information I decided to leave the area even though I had work to do and plans to stay. Little did I know it was Fire Rescue and the Forest Service doing a prescribed burn and the work I had been doing might as well have been knidling for their large scale environmental plan.
I had thought last week, to get the windshield repaired, before getting a ticket. The price of a ticket is the cost of a windshield in AZ, so with the other authority up in smoke, I exercised the reasoning I had mentalized and began a trip to Page, AZ to get the windshield repaired. I did not expect to repeat the car engine ordeal from two years back, so I journeyed into the smokey north horizon with confidence heading into the Navajo Nation seeking repair of the vehicles windshield.
As I drove I thought about, the moon and the Artimis II expedition that had launched to journey around our glowing celestial neighbor. ‘Out there’ I had spotted the starlink satellite chain and a North Star Orientation arising higher than the surrounding red cliffs of the Comb Wash Campground, in South East, Utah.
Comb Wash Campground – GPS Coordinates 37.510876, 109.654940
I too, in a ship, a vessel with the equipment and gear I had determined fit for the journey, orienting to the night sky like a ship on the water.
Organizing the files and making the website changes for work. The last time I drove through Flagstaff, I was about to be given a 200.00$ ticket for the crack across the windshield, when the officer who pulled me over had to respond to an emergency and let me go, leaving in a hurry. That was 2 years ago, now a new crack appeared on the windshield, as soon as I crossed the state line into Arizona at the beginning of the winter, almost as though the windshield industry and the good automotive business people of Arizona had some sort of powerful way of making windshields crack for their supply chain… AZ has amazing lands and conservation, but the automotive industries are saturated per square mile like the wet hair of a dog matted to the animal flesh. Supply and demand is the tourism hussle in Arizona, the more windshields that enter the state, the more cracks will be need…
Hmmmm…
That day in Arizona, I did not know there was a fire near Flagstaff until I began to travel north. The authoriteis were out in mass effect and I was slipping by all the action, and through Flag up to Page with no Authority encounters to add tickects to the list of expenses. I had no plan to leave the spot I was at, but I decided to drive north because in my head, “I should fix the windshield up in Page before I get a ticket for it, I should fix the windshield up in Page before I get a ticket for it”.
So I drove north and looking back I could see the smoke rising, the fire apparent on the Arizona foothills. I felt an urge to respond like it was what I’m for, but rationally I continued toward page to fix the windshield. I’ve spent so much time on BLM and around the Forest Service Lands and encounters with a few Forest Service Members we’re friendly.
I thought of my father, and how I now have some perspective of how he worked surveying the grand canyon and rebuilding engines near the Navajo Nation years ago and now with the Forest Service in New Mexico. The Forest Service gets different support than the military, and there are benefits to the power of the federal establishment out west, natural resource management is often a just cause even if its merit is debated across cultures. The disputes over land involving native people and the varying cultures of the southwest are interesting arguments and I benefit from it as an individual traveling ‘out there’ (On BLM and in the desert), camping in the vehicle.
When I find a spot that is choice and secluded but not a specifically designated open space or camp ground. Being in those sorts of spots on disputed land is conducive to awareness and arising because of ongoing local arguments in terms, treaties and agreements. Working in those spots has lead to some of the most creative, progressive, break through work for me with the devices, the phone and the computer. The Augmentation of the mind is a practice for people like me, who are educated, well and from the United States. There is more to comprehend about the history of earth and the universal comprehension of humanity, the existential wisdom of the Buddha and all divine knowledge of being. The permissions and ascension are a part of work for many people, and dependent arisings of the entity, of the buddha, of natural forces and powerful existences are a phenomenal truth of the universal human experience.
I have found dangerous and threatening situations arise because I comprehended something universally difficult to comprehend or personally uncovering of some beings, people or groups. I have learned that I should back off unless it’s my intent to expose those people… A result of awareness practices, might be awareness of dangerous and difficult people and situations. Tao Wisdom of Ancient China reads; “To know without knowing is a wise way…” and “the further you go the less you know…” So if one begins to know that they are knowing, then maybe going for is the better option.
The difficulty with mindful awareness is when the mind is filled information, energy or instruction that can not put to action simply. To train mindful awareness is to make oneself open to receive information and take informed action. So I have to sit with such difficult feelings.
In the current position, the drivers seat, ‘out there’ on BLM, with the computer in the passenger seat, I worked like an authority.
Working out there on BLM, with the computer and social media, I found that controversial information might cause a drop in the approval. Even though your out there and the proximity support is other campers, there is an approval and support system tot he vehicles, and the computer, and the cell phone social media. It is strange how the cell phone social media effects the current energy of the body. The suburbs are built like a circuit, and the flow of energy is like electricity running through still bodies, and bodies in motion. Out there on BLM, the current is sustain through sharing after applying and sustaining thought and then conserved by active conservation and concentration.
A drop can be so physical like the head actually losing support and your head drops down like a drop from a held position, not like craning your kneck and looking down, a strange phenomenon from working with devices on BLM, Belief Systems about Cars and Computers, Support Systems about Cars and Computers, potential energy currents, data information, the identification method, streams, holds arisings and drops.
A few times out there my head ‘dropped’ and I felt what seemed like an Immediacy of death, like being touched by the .
I was out there in BLM, in a position, doing the work I do, no screen info about the naval arsenal attack on Irain submarines and soil continued, but somehow I knew. I felt like a part of the suffering and planning of war.
I have determined about feeling that it is often information that I do not comprehend and it’s presence needs of me or us trying to give me something. Excess feeling can be augmented like the mind with yoga and the computers/phones. Yoga can eat of it by not eating and flowing through positions and practicing breathing, and the computers put it to form and transform the existing formations.
I have determined that all formation are karmic and therefore the abandoning of formations is attained through the equalizing of Karmic entanglement.
So the Buddha would sit untill his Karmic involvements were resolved before arising and continuing. The difficulty with modern living is the amount of formative living far succeeds the Buddha’s ancient world of sticks, stones, temples and robes.
So I find that I am processing and making formation to transfer current energy constantly and the transformative rates can truly occur more like the matrix than we ever want. Yoga and other body form practices are helpful with deformity, disability and disturbing rates of transformation.
The composition of the body mind in the field of all algorithmic and contextual continuances is held to many standards an it is an opinion I keep, that the transformative rates that are disturbing to the mind when view or seen should be held to a standard once again like a classical western scholar or a classic bhikkhu or Buddhist Monk.
The Forest service seems to be a decent way as well. What is the conformity like? Is the a way that they maintain continuity and manage transformations rates while operating the vehicle and traveling often. Automobiles are a control of the body form and rate of transformation, the design is definitive of the occupants body motion and object interaction with the object assembly.
One of the objectives of design is to control the rate of transformation. So the experience is a continuity of body and mind. The information and visualization of the mind and body is continuous, solid and fluid.
Dynamic motion training is a way to be active and raise ones awareness level.. Through practices like mudgar and yoga the transformative phenomenon is observable, and the cognition of transform leads to thinking, information exchange and the “closing of doors”.
Undisturbed the body mind, closing the doors of Transformative exchanged becomes sustainable, the individual becomes sufficient and established in being.
A video arose on the social media feed that I arrange. The video is of a meditation practitioner passing away in the meditation posture. He sat and they knew, monks with, knew he would pass and so he was adorned with ceremonial death clothes, scarves and material.
The drops of the head sit in the drivers seat made me think of the practitioners dying in that video.
I wonder if people were with me while I was sitting in the drivers seat, and I wonder if they had to drop away from our thinking, or if there was a sudden accident and actual loss of life. Maybe war action occurred, and there was loss of life from a formation I was engaged in was like an electrical device being unplugged while on and functioning, the power of the being revoked from the common karmic formation like a whirlwind returning to the sky, the death or accident causing a drop in awareness and energy in me, like a data system suddenly losing a section of vital information, the whole system faltering and a drop in its power as the loss is comprehended at a rate of immediacy.
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“Water is all that I See” > South at Home Tiny Desk Contest 2026
Have you heard the music of Claire Heywood. She was a member of the Bus Collective, a trip on the green bus around the western United States. Aiden and Jasper, Nick Mouton, and Cousin Jeremy, Claire Heywood and Kacey Flemming, people who I grew up with and from the neighborhood we lived in. The bus traveled far and they met many. Claire exited the Bus in San Francisco and began writing and playing guitar. She returned to Denver, recorded several albums and has since played on the Red Rocks Stage.
http://inonselfmusicarchive.org/?p=2044
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Felix Colgrave: Animator
Also animator Felix Colgrave is making in Australia and has an Animation Career that has the zeitgeist at the tip of his pen albeit through the lens of the strange. At the page like a wide eyed devotee, a scribe and disciple of the bizarre worlds comprehensible by the pen of this noble artist. If I could work with this artist I would provide music I’ve recorded for the animation quality that the artist illuminates regularly.
http://inonselfmusicarchive.org/2026/02/03/walt-the-vault-now-felix-colgrave/
Here is the animation he made Double King.
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The Four Lumps Eating Practice (for Lay People)
There is a practice advised from the Path of Purification, the Vishudhammaga.
A Bhikku practice of “Leaving Four Lumps on His plate” so he can rest in comfort. I can not reason throwing the food away, so I’ve been preparing vegetarian and vegan food that I put out is more like a house party, and I eat from it, often standing, then leave it be and do some work, then eat from, and rest. So this practice is similar to leaving four lumps on the plate and I have been happy with the result.
The eating practices from Buddhism are not devoid of pleasure and it Is a useful practice for lay people and Buddhist common folk as well to develop restraint about food and consumption, while experiencing pleasure from the meal.
Four lumps practice can translate to the modified house party vegetarian dish practice. Leaving food available while you work and rest. This practice changes how you are interacting with food and can make you feel better too.
